Inner thoughts and Advice

One of the greatest relationship I have is with my dad. I find myself talking to my dad about certain things that goes on in my life. Or more so I should say he talks to me about certain things i should observe. Here is a list of his knowledge he passes to me:

1. NEVER WAIT TO THE LAST MINUTE TO GET THINGS DONE

This is my dad's pet peeve that he has with me. He is right because time and time again I find myself getting a trouble or not completing a task at hand.

2. WHEN IT COMES TO YOU SIGNIFICANT OTHER MAKE SURE THAT HER INTENTIONS ARE WITH BOTH OF YOU AND NOT JUST WITH ONE PERSON

Weird, this maybe one of the hardest lessons I'm learning in life. This is mostly why i really cant keep a relationship intact. Sometimes I think its the case, but as time passes. I find out it was only temporary. A couple of times I am mostly to blame, and other times I just move to fast. I'm not even sure if this is even possible to follow this advice.

3. DO THINGS BECAUSE YOU WANT TO AND NOT BECAUSE YOUR FORCE TO DO IT

Most of my life i was always told to do things, and not necessarily because I wanted to. I was told it was the right thing to do. I never really questioned things until I was 22 years old. I seem to learn more when I follow number 3, then when i don't.

4. NEVER LET PEOPLE TAKE ADVANTAGE OF YOU

My parents has always try to protect me from number. If they see it, they make it known and bring it to my knowledge. That is why I have few friends. Many of them have used me, and even some of my girlfriends. Dani has always been the person who makes sure I stay away from number 4 and I try to look out for her.

5. KNOWLEDGE IS IMPORTANT

My Dad always told me to always to ask questions. Sometimes I feel dumb when professors talk to me a certain way. Sometimes to gain knowledge you must learn to ask the right question.

I find it hard to complete all five of these task at the same time. But when have managed to have all 5 of these rules in play, I am usually the happiest soul in the world.

Catching Up

This has been the most interesting two years of my life. It seems like my motivation came from all the wrong reasons. I found myself in a quagmire between staying in michigan and continuing my education or heading back to Florida. It's weird because i found my greatest motivation not with myself, but with a woman who i thought wanted to spend the rest of my life with me. Some how some way, I found a way to make the funds work to head back to FAMU. When I returned, I found the woman I wanted to be with, only seen me as friend. More so she really couldn't stand to be around me. Ignore me and avoided me. Once again I made the decision for the wrong reason, but looked at it as an opportunity. Maybe it was time to focus on me. Then 3 weeks later, I found out it was another man. Maybe I did something wrong and just didn't know it. Although i didn't understand why I did it, but I apologized to her and wished her the best. She forgives me, and not only does she tells me she is engaged, but she is pregnant by him. WOW TO MY SHOCK. Broken once again, but maybe it was time to do me. On the 22nd of October i was invited to a party at her house, in which everyone wanted me to go. Took some convincing but i reluctantly went. Felt uncomfortable and stayed towards my home girls. Closing that chapter in my life.

The following week my sister threw a party in which i was planning to clear my head and mind of the situation. Interesting enough I meet my current wife at this party and we hit it off pretty well. However I was reluctant about having a relationship with her because of my past relationships. Yet she worked hard to try to have me understand that she was the right person for me. She convinced me. She was doing most women would necessarily do. I fell in love with her. In Decemeber, she end up moving in, due to some unforeseen circumstances. Now to explain this too my parents. At first they were accepting but as time past, they started to have their doubts. They met my wife for the first time Easter Weekend. They clashed. I heard it from both sides in which they its hard a relationship after a meeting happens as extreme as that. Yet I'm going to get through it.

Today i find myself living with my family. At least temporary and trying to get through the final stretches of school. Have much concerns and which I could hopefully solve. It will take a lot of patience and time. Hopefully I will keep my sanity.