Young Black Women

Wow.......... sometimes i wonder how women think. I'm use to hearing how a lot of men are dogs, and how they only want one thing. Men want sex! I must be crazy if i can find one gurl who can see past that in me. Because I am young, and I am college, and most importantly I am a male thats all i look for in women. In the experiencing that i realize thats all the see in me, a person who likes and wants to fuck! How angry, upset, and disappointed I am in that mentality, and escpecially in our women. Hummm........... thats life huh. How kind I every treat any gurl special, who doesnt really see me special. I'm the same as the guy who tried to fuck you. Humph..... Thats not special. Lol. Thats not me! But who am i kidding man. Women do not believe one word a say. Everything i do is fake and is a lie. I am only after one thing huh? Ok ill prove ya wrong as I always have to do. If you cant come at me with a pure mentality about me, then dont come at me at all. I just hope that one day that thought could be liberated from women, and my thoughts could be libereated. But for right now, I lost all hope in Black women. THIS IS A MESSAGE TO ALL WOMEN! ESPECIALLY WOMEN IN COLLEGE! Live thoughts and actions in mind of KAM II

my thoughts

I was running a video of my past, and my dad use to play this song. I havent heard it in over 15 years, and all of a sudden i stated to sing it. Lol i guess i more diverse in music than i thought. But here are the lyrics:

Crazy
(Willie Nelson)

Crazy, I'm crazy for feeling so lonely
I'm crazy, crazy for feeling so blue
I knew you'd love me as long as you wanted
And then someday you'd leave me for somebody new
Worry, why do I let myself worry?
Wond'ring what in the world did I do?
Crazy for thinking that my love could hold you
I'm crazy for trying and crazy for crying
And I'm crazy for loving you
Crazy for thinking that my love could hold you
I'm crazy for trying and crazy for crying
And I'm crazy for loving you.

Never notice how strong the lyrics were until i listened and sung it. I guess things happen for a reason huh? I sung this song, and it put a smile on my face as if i was four years old again. Another serious thought in the head of KAM II.

Deep Rooted Love?

They say love is suppose to be compromising. So if loving suppose to be compromise why does it not feel right. For the sake of the relationship I compromise the idea of ultimate intimacy. Intamacy is something great, which i will never be able to express with the one I love. So is Intamacy wrong? For us it is, and to believe that one day ultimate intamacy will one day be achieved is nothing but an innuendo. So is intimacy the heart of all relationship. My belief was always yes. It is what binds every belief, and every thought, and every feeling into one moment. It is that passion that keeps the love strong, secure, and everlasting. Every couple dreams of it, and others cherish that oppertunity. It is the pivot part of every relationship. The first time two people experience the ultimate intimacy, is even compared to heaven right here on earth. I once dreamed of that kind of place. Heaven here on earth. Everyone claims its obtainable. Well its not. Just one sentence closed that door to heaven. As much as i try to hide, or fight this sadness i cant. My smile is fading quicker than usual. My once young and optimistic eyes have now turned elderly and blind. My youth and dreams have dwindled to adulthood and reality. So can love exist without intimacy? I dont know yet, but i just know she is starting to lose me. And if a idea is worth losing the "man you love" than its worth it. Sometimes you have to lose things to gain an idea of what love is.