October 8th

Today was an interesting day, filled with thoughts. My gurls going through a delimma, and as she explained it me, I had a chilling thought. Maybe i was wrong. The idea of leaving your friends for the your significant other. She feels bad about how she and her friend relationship went downhill. Her friend blames it on me. I thought that was perposterous, but as time went on we have been spending alot of time together. So maybe D is right. Yet when D is with her boy.....she blows my gurlfriend off. She feeling sad because she believed its all her fault. This idea of friends vs significant other is playing in my head once again. I remember how mad I use to get when my X would do things with her friends. Its cool with me to hang out with your friends sometimes but dont neglect your boyfriend either. This time the oppisite has happen.... having too much care for your bf, and neglecting your friends. So what we did is separate ourselves and only limit it to the weekend in hopes that she will regevenate D and her relationship. I beleive that the relationship rest in D hands and not my gurl. Yet she is so stuck on her boyfriend that she is not willing to make and effort to fix their relationship. The good thing is arteria and her best friend can develop a deeper relationship, which i know will make her happy. That i do want! I look back and i feel bad. Did I hinder the development of deeper relationship with bri's friends. She has develop a deeper relationship with some of her friends. I know it makes her happy. School was always an issue between me and bri..... always claiming she had homework to do, but still hanging with her friends a lot of the time, not all the time. :) the time me and arteria have spend helped her gain more trust in me. In which i kinda wish me and bri would have done. In a way im glad she has develop more love for her friends. In I hope arteria cheers up soon. If her and doyin relationship develops again because of the absents of me, then i know what i must do. In the end, i just wish for both Arteria and Bri's happiness.