Im loving the rain right now, I makes me feel better, it helps me think, and sadly it puts me in the mood. I know this is wierd and hard to talk about it. You say I always complain about the samething. I have the same problems with her. And thinking about it; she is right. I do say the samething and I thought it was her. I was wrong on that too. Its more so us. To elaborate it seems that we do not have chemistry. As time passed, chemistry has fallen. It scares me to realize "maybe we are not meant for each other" I seem to stress her out instead of motivating her, my words of inspiration are more so words of hurt. Plus she always acknowledge our different view points. More and more things point to us not lasting much longer. She is a great girlfriend and maybe she deserves someone who wouldnt stress her out like I do. Although she claims no one is interested in her, I believe they would be if she opens up.The thought of long term relationship is starting to burn slowly. I know women says everything changes in marriage, but in looking at everyones marriage it dont. It gets worse, times gets shortened, and more arguments insue. Chemistry is important, and right now (not sure about the future) we are on two different wavelegnths. Maybe i should keep my mouth close, my thoughts locked, and my ears and eyes open in the future. Thats how closed I feel with us right now.

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